Chapter 29: Journal Entry 5

Journal Entry 5


I know, I know. I said I’d write more, but I haven’t. Today is day nine of Tom’s stay. Still no word from Roger, and its really starting to annoy me. I wish he would just call. His message machine is still full and won’t let me leave a message. Well, at least he has a phone to let ring. When he left me before, back when we were still friends, his phone was disconnected, and I thought something really bad had happened.

Anyway, I’ll recount what has happened over the past few days. Day one, everyone met him. Day two was pretty quiet. Day three, we went to the mall and I introduced him to DOTS, those weird ice cream balls. Day four, we mostly messed around. Kaley came and hung out with us for a while. Day five was awesome – we went to Laser Quest and out for pizza with Dave, John, and a few of their friends. I was the only female.

Day six was calm, we just hung out and watched TV for a while. Mom told us we had to get up early because we were going up to Niagara Falls the next day. That was really fun – we ate up in the spinning tower. He got another stamp on his passport. It was kind of cold and dreary, and we decided not to stay to see the colors on the falls. After that we went to the nine o’clock showing of a movie at the local theater. Day eight was yesterday, we didn’t really do anything strenuous, but we did get pieces of wood and some chain, and with my dad’s help, made a set of nunchaku. And some staffs.

And then today we went out to the beach and we sparred in the sand with our newly made bo-staffs. It was really fun. He gave me a black eye in hand-to-hand (we had gloves on) when I didn’t get my hand up in time to block his punch. We both have a few bruises on our body. I’d say we’re about evenly matched. We watched the sunset, hung out, talked about our love life difficulties, came home, and now here I am, writing away.

Tom has gotten me hooked on Buffy the Vampire Slayer. That television show. Its really enjoyable to watch, probably because its so predictable. She discovers that there is a bad guy, and she chases after him, kicks some ass, and the world is safe again. Anyway, we actually went to the library and rented the entire Season 1 collection to watch tomorrow. We’re having a Buffy marathon in lieu of nothing else to do.

I’m not really sure what we’re going to do after tomorrow. Maybe go to the mall again? Tom wants to get some flowers for my parents for keeping him for two weeks, and he also wants to pick up a birthday present for Angela. Her birthday is in a few days. He’ll be staying with Megan then, so she’ll be in charge of him.

I’m surprisingly not sick of him yet. I’m only sick of him in the sense that my boyfriend refuses to talk to me because he’s at my house. If Roger’s really hurt or in trouble, I’ll feel bad for being pissed off, but right now, he better have a damn good reason for ignoring me, because its really starting to annoy me. I’m beyond my heart being broken. Thankfully I stayed away from here so I wouldn’t have written proof of my tears.

I mean, it doesn’t do much but prove to me that he is really insecure. How are we going to be married and live together if he expects that walking out on your problems or stuff you don’t feel comfortable with, will make it all better? It doesn’t set a very good example, on any front – as a friend, as a boyfriend, or as a business partner. The site is dying because he hasn’t showed his face on it for these thirteen days either. I can’t tell anyone that I’m the reason, so they think he just abandoned them with nothing to do. No guidance.

God damn it, now I’m frustrated. I’m almost tempted to do something to piss him off, but I won’t. I’ll be the bigger person. Hopefully he will call soon. I really miss him, you know?

Argh.

-Storm